LIFEINASCRAPBOOK

I hate it when I think I’m over something and I’m even with it, but then things keep happening that make me hold on to it and keep me hoping. I’m not speaking of something particular, just in general. Plans for the future, a person, just something you want to buy. No matter what.
Wanting something really bad is hard enough. Not getting it is even harder. And then, when you think everything is okay again and you can go on with another topic something happens and there you are again. Mourning over it. And it doesn’t make it easier when you know that someone else has what you want. It’s so frustrating. It would be a whole lot easier if as soon as you think you’re over it, you could actually really move on, without constant reminders of what could be. Most of the time it’s not even something that just reminds you of what you wanted that comes back, but the thing itself suddenly stands there and smiles right into your face. It’s like finishing a book you didn’t like and you put it away, but then the author him-/herself appears and wants to talk about that book. Stop reopening old sores.
And of course I’m talking about something particular.

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